I'm not a writer.

Then again, I'm hardly an artist. I simply enjoy drawing and never listen to anyone telling me to stop. I tend to think and feel visually, sometimes even in color (they say sad people  feel blue. I feel magenta when I'm artistic, orange when in lust, moss green when I study and crystal blue when doing math).

But as a GM and a roleplayer, I've learned to convey pictures and ideas in a verbal form. I have to write down my own plot for a campaign, I have to tell the GM about my character's goals and intentions so that rocks don't fall and kill everyone et cetera et cetera. Also, if drawing is as natural as seeing, then writing is as natural as talking. Thinking, even, if you take some modern or post-modern literature into account.

However, natural as it may be, drawing requires skill first and foremost. Some people are born with more of it, some with less, but year after year of practice helps greatly. Not to sound boastful, I consider myself a nice example of what one can achieve with no talent and a lot of hard work. It wasn't that hard, really. Nothing is hard when you love doing it.

What I wanted to say about writing: it's the same. I started writing down my fantasy stories, mostly because when I do write them down, they "stay on paper" and leave my poor head in peace. I read them afterwards and get the same feeling I did with my drawings in teenage years: it's the best I could do, but definitely not good enough. They deserve better. My characters are real persons, imaginary as they may be. They deserve to be portrayed well, I'm responsible for portraying them well, and I fail.

So now I look at my recent drawings and at my old anime drawings from ten years ago (my, I'm old enough to remember myself ten years ago!) and I'm pleased to see I've made substantial progress. That gives me hope that maybe one day I'll climb into that learning-curve-shaped mountain and write well enough to not be ashamed to show it to anyone.

But for that, one should be writing fiction, not another journal entry